Monday, June 26, 2006
really hadnt blog for a long long time. so heres a update of my fucked up life.
ever since that thing happened december last year. my life was a downward struggle. nothing has gone my way nor even happened. everything that has happen is either anger or sadness or disappointment.
for the past month it took a worst hit. serious disappointment and really hurtful crap. i don't know what going on but maybe i've not tried my best or its just my life. theres so much lies and distrust. so much pain and so much misery. why must all this thing happen in life?
my sports is fucked up too. did not finish my last 2 bike races and even failed to play well during my golf tournament. i guess i have lost my concentration in doing anything. i have lost tons of sleep and i feel really tired. im just hoping that i will just fall seriously sick and just lie somewhere and loose all my memory.
i just have no mood to do anything. all my wishes and prayers and hopes have not come true at all. every week is just more and more fresh shit happening. the feeling of giving is so tempting. i just want to give up. why must all this happen?
i seriously thought of giving up or just rot myself. i've even thought of taking up smoking to kill myself. but anyway, i guess thats my fucked up life. so i will try n hope more. even though its so slim. i will give up one day.
happy to hear that jin has found mermaid. wonder if shes injured anot. those who have started school. HAVE FUN.
ok. going to end here. will promise that i will blog more often.
MONSTER wants you. seriously.
take care people.
11:06 PM
